Well.

Posting blogs under the influence is a baaaad idea.
Happy February!

Today marks the 13th anniversary of a profoundly bad event in my life. And let's leave it at that.

I've had 13 years to improve and change my life. Taking stock, I am not impressed...

I have not learned any foreign languages. (why do people always want to do that?)
I have not traveled much of anywhere. I did get to fly finally. yay. got to Chicago. yay.
I have not had a decent relationship. Big surprise.
I have not improved my finances. They have never been worse.
I do not have a career at 42. Unbelievable.
I have never achieved a positive milestone that didn't turn out negatively.
I am not sure what to do next or if there even is a next. Maybe there's just more of the same.
I have not expanded my skills in anything.
I have not finished anything I've started.
I have yet to make a good connection in anything.
I have still not learned to mistrust.
i still don't protect myself.
i still tell too much truth when I should just shut up.

Stay tuned to see if I can come up with a list of stuff that is good about the last 13 years.

I need to cheer the fuck up.

....so I am abusing the internets with my muuuusic. heheheheh!

If you can't get a little happier listening to these, well, you don't need to be here.

So. Happy Saturday night! I'm gettin dressed and ready to cruise the town, as is my wont on Saturday nights. And I'll hopefully fight some crime, also.

Goodnight, folks!

First One of the New Year!

Happy New Year!